Some days its overwhelming

Today was one of those days where I felt sorry for myself.  I tried to stay chipper but honestly its too much for me. I am an independent person and I have been good at providing for my so and myself. Making sure we always had enough. I am now stuck in bed with only the occasional outing to the doctors office or a couple other options.

Bed rest is becoming an adjustment I am not a fan of. my legs are cramping and I can't figure out to get them to stop hurting. I know I am doing this for our little one's health but its overwhelming not being able to see my friends or watch football with them, talking crap about how bad their teams are. I just need a little help.

I would love for my friends to stop by and talk just keep me company or hell text me "hey how are you feeling?" I know it seems silly but I need the social interaction. I love my son and boyfriend but I need more interaction with my friends.

I am looking forward to next weekend when I will get to go to my shower, even if confined to my glider the whole time.  The opportunity to see friends is going to make my day.  I take my friends for granted, because you think that I will just see them next week or at the next gathering. I take the little things for granted too being able to carry my son or keep up with his energy. Things like cooking I have to teach my boyfriend from the comfort of my bed. Grocery shopping for things I need last minute is out of the question too.

I am not sure which was worse being stuck in the hospital for a week or this now 4 days out of 9 weeks. So I have only 8 weeks and 3 days left to get through and those weeks seem daunting. I am trying very hard to just take it one week at a time. So I focus on counting down to each doctor appointment and ultrasound.

I also have taken to asking friends for advice on surviving bed rest. I am working on a couple different projects. I have a couple blankets I am working on for the boys and I figure if anything they will bee Christmas gifts for them. I worry about the next 2 days as I will be alone at home with my son and I know it will be a rough couple days.