First Thing's First

Photo by Chickypoo Photography

Well let me start by telling you why I started this; I am almost 30 weeks pregnant with my second boy, and I have been ordered to bed by my doctor. I honestly knew I would be but at this stage I didn't expect it. I was hoping I could get to 32 weeks before I was sent to bed.  I never thought I would be here, with another baby on the way. I had accepted my fate as a Mom of one. I was in a good relationship and I had a fantastic son who I loved dearly, this was the life I planned to live.  Then one day it came the big fat positive pregnancy test. I was shocked I didn't think it was possible for me because of my health conditions, my first son was a miracle to me. 

So let me tell you a little about this pregnancy. I found out I was pregnant and my world and my boyfriend's world flipped upside down. He was not ready and I was torn. I wanted this baby so bad it was my last chance and I was going to take the chance with or without him. At about 6 weeks the nausea kicked in hard and fast and after my first appointment I was put on a zofran pump and IV fluids at home to keep me hydrated I was mostly bed ridden and I hated it. I felt alone and scared. I managed to get off the IV after a couple weeks and the zofran pump at about 14 weeks. The first trimester was over and I was convinced the worst was over.

The second trimester was smooth until about 25 weeks when the contractions started. They were stronger than I remembered with my son. I went to labor and delivery for the first time at that point.  I can't remember at this point how many times I have been but it was enough to send me to bed rest. The first terbutaline shot that I had caused severe side effects including extremely low blood pressure and vomiting. Since that shot I have had 3 more, no side effects with those shots except the shakiness and restless legs. This last time the contractions were strong and were felt around my back and I didn't like them at all. I went to labor and delivery as usual and was admitted and given the shot. They sent me home afterwards. Then this morning I received a call from the doctor on call and she said it was very possible that I would be placed on bed rest. I received a call from her at 10:00 am telling me I was to go home and would be on bed rest the remainder of my pregnancy.

The dreaded words I was not prepared to hear I walked into my bosses office and closed the door I told her I would be going home on doctors orders till I had my baby then 6 weeks after that. I am honestly terrified about our finances I was a big part of the income and not working doesn't work for this situation. I have faith that we will get through this because we are never given more than we can handle. I hope by telling my story I can help others.